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The conversion of Saul of Tarsus is truly one of the most compelling stories in the New Testament. In only 20 verses, we see a man so profoundly impacted by an encounter with Jesus that he goes from seeking to kill Christians to preaching to convert Jews. However, the change was not immediate. St. Luke recounts that after his experience of Jesus, Saul was unable to see for three days. When we seek encounters with the Lord, we tend to want Him to make Himself immediately clear in His answers to our questions. Yet, as with Saul, the Lord may withhold clarity from us for a time. In so doing, He asks us to trust Him and be willing to walk by faith, not by sight. (2 Cor 5:7)
As Saul waits in darkness, the Lord Is at work calling Ananias to go to him. Jesus claims Saul as one who is chosen for a great mission, but He also reveals that Saul will suffer for His name. In His great mercy, Jesus does not want the man who will become St. Paul to begin his difficult journey alone. Instead, He sends a brother to lead him to the Holy Spirit.
If we are feeling blind and uncertain even after encountering the Lord in prayer, let us remember the story of Saul’s conversion. What we perceive as darkness and confusion might be what the Lord is allowing to prepare us to receive the help we need for the important journey He has planned.
Megan Silas is a Lay Passionist at Holy Name Passionist Retreat Center in Houston, Texas.